You twirl my life

 You twirl my life 'round your fingers and laugh that gorgeous laugh   
that made me cry every August night.
    Tears drip off my cheeks, as crimson flowers blossom on my wrists;   
The only thing you ever gave me.
    Your soft smile brings my heart to a crecsendo, while your gentle   
hands rob me of my senses. I'd ask you to stop if I weren't so afraid   
that you'd listen.
    You promised that you're not the one for me, but with all the   
other lies you've told, how can I know that it's the truth?
    I wanted you. You wanted me. A summer week to ruin a life. I cling   
to my memories of each day, just seven more things I let drag me down.
    Your voice is a quiet mix of everything I want. I haven't heard it   
in 8 months. I stare at your phone number, tracing the figures in   
bitter longing. Something stops me from crumpling up the paper, but I   
will never call you.
    You want what's best for me. I need what's worst. You won't   
destroy me, you won't love me, but I can't get rid of that fleeting   
hope I get every night.
    They can say what they like; I am the only one who can see what I   
am, and I am yours. I will never give up. Because you are who you are.   
Because I am who I am. Because you took my heart with you, and I don't   
want it back.
   Because I love you.