I don't know how it got this way

 I don't know how it got this way
Never thought I'd see the day
It took me by complete surprise
The moment I knew I lived for your eyes.

I need you more than words can explain
Your taste is my new brand of pain
Wanna lick you- kiss you- bite you quick
This feeling for you is like mud- it's so thick.

Your essence strives to swallow me
This isn't cheap sentimentality
Is it affection?
No- you're simply my obsession.

I watch you laugh and talk and be
Your existence is cancer deep within me
I'd love to boil you alive in a pot
then drink your broth- I bet it's hot.

I can't say I like you- you frustrate my mind
Why search for justification I'll never find?
I hate you; I want you; I long to devour
the core of your being in your darkest hour.

Addict me, control me- there's always more room
Just like the beasts let's exist to consume
You make me feel primal in all the worst ways
If I rip you to shreds it's only foreplay.

Darling you're lovely and I'd love to hold you
And shake you, and shatter you, then re-mold you.

You're a twisted presence inside of me
An artist that colors the light in me

And when you've left m, as you'll no doubt do
Without the strength to complete you

I'll smile bitterly and close my eyes
Knowing once more that love's beauty's a lie

Let me die in your shadow's coattails please
Love's not a curse- it's a terminal disease.